moving out.

I’ve been thinking about how better everything will be when I move out a lot recently. I know I won’t be able to afford anything or actually leave home anytime soon but it doesn’t hurt to fantasise, right?

I will be able to have everything how I like it and I won’t have to deal with annoying noises from anyone else living in the home because it’ll just be me. I’ll be able to choose all my own meals and utensils and eat what I want when I want. I can choose what I want to do on my free days instead of being dragged somewhere overwhelming. 

I’ll be able to accommodate my own needs and stuff to do with my autism instead of just having to suck it up or have a meltdown and when I live alone, I’ll be able to unmask without anyone asking why I’m “upset” or “angry”.

I just wish I could leave now.