Christmas

This Christmas was okay. I first woke up early in the morning, before 3 AM. This has been happening a lot recently, I don't know why but I just wish I could sleep smoothly. I ended up waking up at around 8 AM but I stayed in my bed until after 10 AM. When I went to the living room, all of my family was there. I opened part of my stocking and played with a bell that I had found for a while. I was not very happy. When I opened my presents, they were okay, but nothing that I was interested in, though I guess I am at fault since I never gave anyone any gift ideas. This morning was really tough for me because I was overwhelmed with dysphoria and an unsourceable feeling of sadness. When I went back to my room I nearly cried, but I went back to the living room and just sat there for a while as my family continued to enjoy their own things. My mother questioned my quietness multiple times. We had pancakes for lunch which I liked. Time passed throughout the day and it has come to where I am now at 11:05 PM. I am going to go to bed now. Goodnight.