tired (vent/ trigger warning)

i feel like school is so stressful, and its not schoolwork thats my problem. i leave at 7:30 and get home at 5pm because im an hour dr1ve away from school and like it might not seem that bad but the minute i get up im so tired and i have to get ready and once im ready i leave and when i get home i have to do stuff, then its dinner time, then after dinner i just get so tired i have to get to sleep and i feel like at home is the only time i am myself. i dont feel anxious at home, but when im out im so scared and everything and since im always out 5 days a week its just so tiring and idk i need my time to myself. and all my friends make me feel so guilty, so horrible about myself. i cant e4t around them or else theyll tell me to starve, i cant express myself or else theyll tell me stuff like if anyone in the friend group were to dyye theyd wish it would be me. they h1t me all the time, ki1ck me all the time. they always aim for me, but for eachother theyre like family. i dont know whats wrong with me. i have like 3 weeks left and then i get to move schools, but i just cant take it. i try to tell my family, but they all tell me that all friends are like that and its funny (besides my mum she actually cares) i love my whole family but idk what to do. days feel so long, so po1ntless. i lose track of time. its only thursday. i have another day of it then the weekend, then back to it. i just had to let it out im sorry. i just hope all works out in the 3nd im so tired