just a ramble >_<

WOAH 2 BLOG ENTRIES IN ONE DAY 

totally unlike me i know, but recently i’ve found myself lacking in an outlet like this to just talk yk? pardon my corniness but i feel so judged on other social media platforms, the peering fact that someone in might know could find my account and read everything i’ve poured my heart into. but the likeliness of that happening here is so low i just feel comfortable talking. 

it’s the same feeling i get when i go to concerts, it’s like feeling finally at home with people alike you.

in my other post i mentioned my “brother” who really isn’t my brother, and i feel the same way around him. he just understands me, we have the same interests and basically the same personality the only difference is he is a HUGEEE nerd (irony) i wish there were more people like him, i have other friends but nobody is really the same. every time it gets quiet when we hang out i feel so normal, for a brief moment i forget all the bullying and awkwardness  and uncomfortable silences from before i can just simply, exist. 

i didn’t expect to write that much about him tbh. he’s the only one of my friends who i can somewhat imagine finding this acc so if he ever does, HI DAN!! I LUV U!!!! 

soo on another note, i sorta have a boyfriend! not really, actually really not at all he said he doesn’t want to be official but we make out sometimes so i’m gonna count it as a win! he’s nice, and cute. so yeah that’s pretty cool.

i really enjoy writing these, usually they would stay in my notes app ^_^ little off topic, but i’m honestly considering deleting a lot of my social medias. i feel like a huge weight is lifted off my shoulders when i don’t have to deal with them. ofc they’re fun n all but sometimes i can feel the repercussions it’s had on my self esteem n all. 

it’s getting a little late so i’m gonna call it a night, GN SILLIES =_=!!!