With You - Original Poem <3

with you

love was hard. 

love was bruises and tears, love was taking my pain and turning into my fears. love was messy and ruined, blown to pieces by a word, too fragile and blue, feeling familiar but a kind of hurt that’s still new.

and maybe one day he’ll change, she’ll change. maybe one night makes it all go away. maybe one more chance makes it worth it to stay.

but you love me so purely, honest and fearless. you make breathing easy, you make loving so tearless.

with you comes peace, a steadiness i’ve yet to learn - yet just being with you feels steady, like home. 

with you my deepest secrets and shames seem so big and so small - you won’t leave with my mistakes, you’ll see them and you’ll call.

i’m never alone with you, you engulf my whole world - you’ve seeped into my cracks and while you fill them, you twirl.

you leave me at peace yet fill me with life. 

living is easy now, my world seems much bigger: if our love is a movie i want all the pictures. 

“you’re glowing!” they say, anyone who loves me. “what happened?” they ask, knowing things that still haunt me.

while i try to explain, it’s never enough. i love you is too shallow, too rigid and too tough. your reach has no bounds, and how can i say that when you reached me you completed me, but not in that way?

my atoms hold yours, and yours hold mine - we were complete beforehand, yet your love became my bind.

i’ve always been broken and sharp and jagged, but you make me feel smooth and mended, even less ragged. 

i wear myself out, always scared you’ll wear too, yet you’re always here, and you always call soon.

we do it well, this thing called love. we played before and lost - but this round is one with  no hurt, no loss.

no words truly fit, and no language is enough, but every day i get to give my heart and my love. 

you are sunshine and joy, a treasure so close to being lost - you are my world, my galaxy, my heart and my soul, for my atoms hold yours, and you have my whole. 

love was pain, emotional black and blue.

thank god i know better now. 

thank god i met you.