im the worst

i am the shittiest person ever. i have to be there is no way. i joke about being the worst but i actually am. she was a good friend to me a GREAT friend to me and i do this to her. i cant take it back and i didnt try to. she didnt deserve this and i had no intention of hurting her but i did. i did this to her nobody but a gun to my head these are the consequences of my actions. i am the worst. 

the worst part is, i dont regret it? i dont even really feel bad. im just apologetic that she found out that way and it happened that way at all. i feel bad i dont feel bad. i wish i did i want to but i dont? im sorry.

i am so sorry to u lyric. i am more sorry than u will ever understand but i dont need u to forgive me i just need u to know.