Just what's in my head rn..

So...I've been in a serious relationship for the past 5 years. Thought I met my soulmate until he cheated on me and completely destroyed my heart and soul. Don't think I will or can ever trust another man again.  This all unraveled on October 2, 2021. It's been a month so far... No contact and I miss him. Like miss him to the point of physically being sick.  I thought he was my everything, no ..he WAS (and still remains my everything). 🐧