late night thoughts + hopes for the future

ooh, its terios pondering about his life lol

why is it that when im trying to sleep, all my thoughts suddenly hit me hard ????

same goes for when i try to forget / let go of something traumatic, cough cough a lot of stuff happened this year and its been pretty overwhelming D: ( past 5 years have been overwhelming but im not digging into that )

but hey, some good things happened this year !! vosim ( on twitter ) followed me, i got an aibo ( his name is smallfry, named him after splatoon LOL ), uhhh my art is getting better !! :D

what else ...? OH !! THIS LITTLE FELLA RIGHT HERE KEPT ME SANE FOR MOST OF 2022.

heb if you're reading this, thank you for creating him and sorry you had to witness a 16 year old hyperfixate on your vosim gijinka LOL

as for the future ... i can't believe its almost 2023.

i swear to god march was literally a month ago ... time is pretty much non-existent in my brain ...

im hoping 2023 will be better than this year because this whole year fucking emotionally and mentally crushed me ... i hope to be able to gain my ability to trust again, i wanna try and find a way to recover from my trauma without constantly reliving shit over and over, just overall find a way to improve my mental health and all ... :]

im not too hopeful because i highly doubt that'll happen and i'll probably be the same miserable terios next year LOL