I hate the current state of the world.

There will be no trigger warnings on this post so please be careful.

I live near a city in Florida called Fort Myers. Right now, I am about a 5 minute walk away from a high school. This high school was just on lockdown, while my best friend, a student there, was in there. They said they heard a gun, but apparently it was a hoax. I'm scared, they're scared, we're all scared and there's nothing I can do about it other than sit in my grandma's house and quiver in fear. And this is normal now? I can't take this anymore. 

And it doesn't help that when I show concern to my mom, she yells at me to focus on my own schoolwork instead of worrying about my friends.