Sexuality

[this is a rabble and I haven't reread it or anything, it probably makes no sense]

I feel weird about my sexuality at the moment. 

It's always felt kind of off but I think with how long I've known I'm not exactly straight (going through different sexualities and labels), I guess I've realised my sexuality fluid? Like it changes through time, as I grow up I discover more about myself.

Like when I was first identifying as not straight, I was only 10 and now I guess different things come into play like sexual attraction as well as romantic and physical attraction. 

I've gone through so many labels since then that really, I just gave up. Like, I'd find a label and it would fit for like a year but I'd wake up one morning and it would just feel wrong. That's why I say I'm unlabelled, I just don't have the motivation to try and label myself and something.

I wish I could label myself though. Like, telling something I'm this or that, it gives them a definitive answer to what and who I like. But saying I'm unlabelled doesn't tell anyone anything.

Sure, I know I like men and non binary people and maybe women but they're not gonna know that if I say I'm unlabelled. 

I hate being unlabelled but I also don't feel like I fit anything else. Bisexual, pansexual, omnisexual, gay, abrosexual; they all just don't feel right. I wish I fit into one of them so much, but I don't and I need to accept that.

It's a struggle, I guess.