My drug abuse.

Fuck.

The first time i tried weed was in 7th grade with a couple of my much older friends.I liked it,it made me happy and yeah,after weed i started drinking alot and i mean alot,then i tried LSD,and lsd was the hardest to get rid of in my life,after lsd i tried xanax and started taking xanax on a day to day base.Then came amphetamine,thats where i crossed the line,heroin and crack just is too much for me,i would kms if i got addicted to heroin or crack.So i tried the drugs i mentioned a few times and i got really into LSD and psychosis drugs.From 7th -9th grade i was an addict,and only my older friends knew about it,i used to skip class to go fight for money,so i could fund my addiction,i hated hurting people,the only reason for me to beat them in a fight was to win money,because we had a secret thingy going on were other people bet on the fighters,and i also get a cut of the money.I was a 7th grader fighting 15 and 16yr olds,ngl i was pretty good at it,but there was this one guy that punched me one time,and i said i aint fighting him.Thats a different story,so i fought for money,got my drugs from my older friends,i remember greening out before class,getting so drunk i couldnt walk to class and just pass out somewhere close to the school.I remember a bad trip on LSD,everything was covered in blood and spiders everywhere,it haunted me for a long time.The first time i tried amphetamine i was amazed on how good it made me perform while fighting.So i kept using it,it gave me a blood rush,holy amouts of energy,its like cocaine,but cocaine is 5x stronger but the effect doesnt last as long as amphetamines.Ive also tried coke before,its not worth it i stuck to amphetamine,coke is 6x expensive then amphetamine.The first time i tried coke is when i finished 9th grade,i told my parents im gonna stay at my friends house for a week,i did soo many drugs and drank so much,since coke is sooo strong,the first time i snorted it,my nose began to bleed really bad,all my clothes where covered in blood but i liked it.Then after 9th grade i went to study as an auto mechanic,the city i was studying in was the capital of Latvia,it has a pretty big crime rate,so getting drugs was easier then ever,i tried shrooms and hockey pucks.I was depressed and suicidal because of how much of an addict i had became.I tried to end my life by overdosing on xanax,i some how survived,i tried suicide a bunch more times in the past,but somehow i always survive,i remember cutting my thighs with a razor,and dropping 4 whole xanxs in my mouth,i knew it was it.But i woke up in the morning alive,i woke up cleaned myself up,i was soo numb,i couldnt even cry,i just sat in silence,i didnt go to school for a few days,the girl i liked a lot said she didnt like guys like me,so i changed my self,i stopped doing drugs all together,i smoke weed when im offered to for free,i dont spend my money on drugs,the only drug i use is weed,and i dont buy it,my friends sometimes offer me weed,but i dont always accept it.I stuck to cigs and alcohol,i dont drink as much i used to,i used to get drunk untill a black out every other day,but now i drink a lil on the weekends and thats it.I got the girl i wanted because of this,i will never ever do anything like that,i know i wont get addicted again.