sigh i hate crushes

i think i should give up on wanting her like ,,,,, i feel like she only see's me being her friend not rlly anything else so !! and i feel like i'm always making her uncomfy when i interact w her and i don't like that at all and she makes me incredibly nervous (more than i usually am D: ) ,, but alas ! i could rlly like her a lot 2 but i dunno if i should even try anymore and i don't know if i want a crush that's going to eat me from the inside out !!! well today was good though so that's all that matters !!!

-expy