ADHD Journey

Struggling to get out of bed

I think I've progressed a lot since my long needed ADHD diagnosis back in early 2021. I'm finally on meds that work and I'm learning to work with, and not against my unconventional ways of getting things done. And im finally building a support system that is understanding or slowly becoming understanding of this.

And the way I'm typing this on a hot pink bratz keyboard makes me feel so cool when I'm on my comp hehe :-)

I'm finally in a place where I can slowly but surely crawl towards the life I want to have and the environment I want to create for myself. For the longest time I couldn't have this because of a combination of less than ideal financial, familial, and environmental situations. I either didn't have the resources or have the time. And it doesn't help that my mom's side has a history of very intense and undiagnosed ADHD, so I never grew up having any form of systems or organizing or planning of any kind. I'm working out a system for not only myself but everyone else I live with >.> A little bit difficult.

I think as much as I want to live a life where I can finally have that Everything Pink and Cute and Fabulous lifestyle, I think I need to remind myself that it's not going to look the same as the movies I watch where the white blonde women with hairless bodies will have financially well off (and stable) parents and living situations. And that it's completely okay to look different than that and still be just as fabulous. I'm really glad the comeback of y2k fashion is starting to also address the horrible racism, abelism, and fatphobia that made it so excluding for ppl at the time.

The way this post was literally just gonna be me talking about how hard getting up in the morning with adhd and I end up typing all this out. oops.