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-I'm neurodivergent (ADHD symptoms from childhood to this day) with PTSD but I have learnt to be able to control myself so don't be afraid to be real with me! Nowadays, the worst you'll see of me is oversharing or over-dominating conversations.( ；∀；)
-日本語分かってるなら、友にしたい！！！それやばく感じか？www
-I'm SE Asian, mixed Thai and Javanese. But I don't think race really matters lol (ㆁωㆁ)
-I'm bisexual but have a preference for men cuz man big and single but I'm not looking for love on here (´；ω；｀)
-Please don't be afraid to bring up sensitive topics to me whether in a satirical fashion or a serious discussion! I've learnt to cope with my trauma and face it in a healthy way!╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯
-Please be aware that I create and consume traumacore, slightly suggestive l0licon and g0re art as a coping method. I feel this method is healthy because it's a coping method that doesn't harm or disturb others. You are free not to interact if this makes you uncomfortable! (´-﹏-`；)
-If you're accepting that I consume the things stated above but don't feel comfortable looking at it, don't worry because I use TWs regularly as it's compulsory to me! I don't mind those who don't use TWs tho, I'm pretty okay with crazy shit taking me by surprise.
-Use of tone indicators isn't compulsory when talking to me but it is very appreciated because I have trouble recognizing tone.(• ▽ •;)
-If you aren't okay that ur art is being used on my profile, feel free to dm me on here or on my Twitter/Instagram (@angel_hanachi) to take it off my page!
-Maybe take a look at my music while you're here! Also if you're a fellow vkei fan/bangya/bandoman, hmu! I wanna meet others with similar interests.
-DNI: None! Lol I'm open minded and as long as u aren't violently pushing anything onto me, I fw u! But exclusively promo accs are on very thin ice because I'm here to interact with people and speak my mind, not really find anything new to listen to/watch. (´-﹏-`；)
-Here's a summary of my trauma. Topics associated with it no longer trigger me however you can take a read of it out of curiousity. (TW//r@p3, p3dophilia, physical abuse, verbal abuse, blood, death threats, sexual harassment, gang violence)
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-Throughout childhood (10 to 13 which was back when I went out more to buy groceries or meet up with friends, random men would touch me with their hands in places that made me uncomfy only to leave before I saw their faces.
-At age 14 when I first put out music, I was harassed by 3 p3dophiles online on three separate occasions, all of which I handled by saying no luckily.
-At age 9, I was almost raped by a drunkard while trying to walk out to buy snacks after school. Luckily was able to run away before he could though. I might add I was in an almost similar experience at 7 when a guy grabbed my hand attempted to start a sexual conversation with me out of nowhere. I didn't comply and just left. It's weird because he didn't even try to restrain me but looking back at it now, what I thought was just some weirdo might have actually been tryna do sumn fucked up.
-From age 5 onwards, my father has used extreme beatings (face kicking, stomach punching, causing nosebleeds, beating with plastic or metal objects) as regular discipline for small things such as a speck of dust on the floor or an untidy room.
-From age 7 onwards, my mother would constantly say I was ugly and my father would call me things ranging from a dog to a pig to a "k*mak" which is a harsh insult in my country.
-When I was 13, I witnessed a small bit of gang violence while waiting for my parents to pick me up from school. I didn't get involved luckily but it was very traumatizing to see. Don't want to explain what it was. Also was friends with a few gang members and they changed my view of the lower class from disgust to sympathy.
-As much as the things I have experienced are traumatic, I'm not one to hold grudges against those who caused it directly nor indirectly. Because based on what kind of place I was in at the time and in terms of my parents, based on how they were raised, it's not something they can control well. Not to mention my parents didn't hate me, they just aren't mentally fit to care for children. I still love them. I just want to forgive and let go.
-I'm here to make friends with anyone interested. If you aren't tryna be a predator, I'll welcome you with open arms. I will take knowledge of your views and opinions in respect of you whenever I interact with you. It doesn't matter if our views differ, we can always be friends in another aspect of our personality! I'm not here to argue or prove a point. I'm not here to wallow in negativity. I'm here to be friendly and put myself out there. I'm very open-minded and if something I say offends you, feel free to lmk. It's not so I will delete but so that I can understand what offends you and what to avoid when talking to u. I'll even place trigger warnings in my post titles for you to decide if you'd like to open it or not. I'm not going to miss out on some amazing people just because of political views or negativity. I'm here to be a friend! I can't force you to be my friend but I'm aways open if u wanna be! Please understand that! 🙇♀️
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treux
Hey, thanks for being so real and open about your experiences. It takes guts to share like that. I respect how you're not letting your past define you and instead, you're choosing to move forward with positivity and forgiveness.
Thanks fam
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