Thinking bout..

..how I've been such a people-pleaser in this lifetime. Always nice to the bullies, killing them with kindness, so to speak. Here's the thing, whenever I did that it broke me. More and more, until I was left with zero self-esteem. And I wondered, 'how? I've been so kind, so giving, so vulnerable.' But that's just it. Too giving, too vulnerable, too kind. All that energy for the wrong people. And yeah, it is a waste. 

All this time I have desperately sought the goodness in others. Their intentions may very well have been to break me down, perhaps just as low as they are. Because my happiness makes them sick, they hate my confidence, and loathe everything I stand for even though they refuse to know anything about me. And after so many breakdowns due overextending myself and passively accepting every jerk and bitch out there, I can now confidently say "I'm not as good as you? Fuck no, I'm more better than you!" (thx John Davis) FUCK BULLIES.