Motivation ::::(

These past few weeks I've really felt my motivation waning. I want to make videos, I want to get the jump on college projects but I just don't do anything. My anxiety has been worse too. Maybe I can begin making more changes once classes begin again. I just haven't been my regular chaotic self. I want to be unpredictable, fun and bouncing off the walls happy like I usually am. But now I just feel scared and alone. Maybe I'll leave this funk through sheer fucking force of will. No more wanting. 

I will...