kinda vwentish (note: wvery)

im alwvays like,,, kinda mildly suicidal? at all times???? like just enough for me to notice but not enough for me to wvorry at all, or wvorry anyone else
isnt helped my the fact it kinda feels like my life is sorta falling apart rn yk?
idk wvhat to do lmao
i keep thinkin abt smoking or relapsing or wvhatevwer and its not good (fucking obvwiously)
so yeah thats fun lmao