self growth is worth it

i would just like to first of all say that this is my first blog and im not entirely sure what the hell I'm doing but it's a start!  

I'm 17 and I've never been in a relationship before. I was bullied a lot in elementary school and it changed me a bit as a person yknow? Anyways, i never saw relationships as a must have like a lot of my peers and I was ok with that because I knew none of them were gonna last, so what was the point. Now my growth to get to who I am now was not easy, it took a lot of mental healing. I had to learn to set boundaries for myself, learn to love the person I now have to be. I am finally okay with who I am and I want that sort of intimacy, it just seems that everyone I'm around just wants FWB, nothing serious. Like if that's what you want then fine go elsewhere because I am always straight up with what I want. This one dude that I was recently talking to said he wanted the same thing. That he wanted a relationship, but something was off. Anyway we were talking for about a week and then he said"I've been waiting like a good boy, can i get some pics?". I was caught off guard and told him no, I wasn't comfortable with that. HE.BLOCKED.ME. I wasn't too shocked since I had a bad feeling about him in the first place, I was just disappointed that he thought he could lie to me by playing this nice guy act when off the jump I said honesty was a big thing for me. I didn't let this one guy faze me, I know my worth, other people should realize that too, don't settle because one person is showing you the tiniest bit of affection. if it doesn't feel right, it probably isn't.

if anyone reads this, thanks for letting me rant.