Christmastime Exams and Misery

My Christmas exams start on the 28th of this month and go on throughout the entire school week. My music practical is on the Thursday the week after. Yay! I am soooooooooooo looking forward to my exams *said no one, ever*

These exams are really important to me however as they will be submitted to UWC or United World Colleges as part of my application. I really hope they go well as last year I was really disappointed by the fact I didn't get in. That is why this year I am trying so hard in school to actually do well. 

Christmastime (like the Smashing Pumpkins song https://youtu.be/XgU-Od3G6DY ) in general for me, sucks. The atmosphere itself might feel peaceful but I always feel so stressed by the crazy amounts of shopping, queues and the weird sense of melancholy I always get at Christmas. It is hard to describe but there just feels like an impeding force towers over me in a cruel fashion during the holidays, ruining everything. This became more prevalent after I lost both of my grandmothers. The only thing I like about Christmas is the Waterford Winterval which I haven't gone to in years as my granny took me. 

This post took a bit of a sad turn and I'm sorry for that. I told ye, Christmas makes me sad. Fingers crossed that I might actually have a good one this year, doubt it though.