secrets

What was once dark is now deep

You are the one that reminds me

From the ocean floor, these fears come a long way up and they come down hard

It’s raining when you aren’t here 

A moment when you aren’t looking

A moment where I shine the brightest

Winter is here and you hold me here in our home and I don’t have to worry about who may appear at our door 

Tell me I don’t need to worry

Fleeting thoughts we tried so hard to solidify no longer hold us down 

Once tied on a post and never free

Tell me I don’t need to worry 

I don’t think you understand how badly I want this

(He doesn’t know it makes me feel guilty, how everything makes me feel guilty)

I once wanted so badly to not care, to be disgusting and terrible and cool, instead of caring too much and being only disgusting. 

I’m caring just the right amount, loving just the right amount, and I feel filthy and awesome.