relationship problems

okay so basically i haven't been in a relationship in ?5? years (idk it was in the 5th grade and now i'm a sophomore). he was a cool guy but talked a lot of shit so i ended things. it's definitely embarrassing to me that i haven't dated anyone else but what can you do yk. i wouldn't say i'm necessarily all that good looking but i also wouldn't say i'm ugly lmao. i just have a lot of problems with socializing and that's an understatement. no random person who doesn't know me is going to ask me out because since i don't have a lot of looks to go off of, they have to go based off my personality. the only "real" friends i have are gay or i just don't feel that way about them. but recently (4 months ago) i met this guy from my school on instagram and i have been head over heels and under ever since (antigone reference sorry). he's really not all that but i can't help the attraction. my friends say i shouldn't like him because he's "ugly" like.. okay? sorry i don't judge people based off their looks like you do. anyway sorry for the mini rant, he stopped talking to me for awhile which kinda made me "depressed". i'm not sure if it was him not talking to me that made me sad but i know that when he finally started talking to me again last weekend, i have been ecstatic and super happy ever since. i'm not sure if he feels the same way about me but i'm sure i'll find out soon enough.