i hope this makes sense

I was falling asleep the other night and I had this thought 

it might not make much sense but stay with me 

I cycle through stages of depression and mania and anxiety

and nothing is constant

there is only chaos

and the second I forget that

I am fucked.

October was peaceful

balanced.

I thought maybe the war was over

November 1st came and a heavy realization came to me

I am a reflection of what I understand about the universe

the moon cycles the earth

the earth orbits the sun in a cycle with all the other planets in our solar system

I could see it so clearly all my blue and red nerves in my brain glowing bright like strange erupting astrological phenomena.

My emotions are the moon in its phases

grief shutdown new moon

full moon breakdown buildup

these arent all correct but I am apart of something bigger

everybody is

our brains are not these perfect machines

every line and curve are not equal.