Panic attack

Panic Attack

Everyone is looking at me, and I don't know why. I'm starting to overthink, is it because I look ugly? Is it because I am fat? I open my phone camera and look at myself; no I look fine, why are people looking at me then? Drinking coffee in the morning didn't help, it always makes me feel like I'm dying. I hate public places, I always have. Maybe I should finally do something about it... 

A couple of years ago I couldn't even go out alone, even going shopping was a difficult task. But with time it got slightly better, getting a job for sure made me more confident. Sometimes I have panic attacks like that; feeling nauseous, racking heartbeat, and sweaty hands. I'm used to that but it still makes me so scared.

Does anyone care about it? I doubt it but writing my feeling down helps.