Nothing beats the loop of loneliness

I don’t know anymore, I make friends then months later i’m lonely again and it all seems to be my fault. I don’t have any close friends, all are acquaintances who want something from me. My personality is unpleasant to others, and I am not a fun person to speak to, I am not as good looking as my peers, I don’t know how to fix this. I’m seen as unnormal to everyone around me and I can’t change anything about it. My acquaintances from the last 2 years probably all hate me, I try my best to love everyone but I don’t seem to love enough; maybe thats why everyone seems to not notice me despite me trying to love and help them. Laurice, Aien, Hope, Pat, Grey — they all don’t need me anymore, they all probably hate me. My God I even tried to cut contact with the people I thought were close to me , and they were — but I’m just the way I am. I don’t have friends in school, only acquaintances who need or want something from me — God I can’t even talk to them like a normal person. Why does nobody understand me?? Why can’t I understand myself? I wish someone can give me the answer as to why everything needs to come and go, and I wish the process was easier