10-24-22 ♡ hi spacehey ! + blurbs

Here's me shouting to a void in hopes anyone reads this!! Hi I'm Aiya and I really like the color pink or whatever!!! I think everything else about me's already on my page and I find it hard to identify myself outside of content and media..........

..........which is why it's my thesis!!!

I'm currently an animation student and we start the process of creating our thesis film (or whatever animated media) as ""early"" as our second year. I don't know where I want my story to flow specifically, but do you know how tea is practically enjoyed everywhere but in very different ways??? But all tea traditions are always rooted in comradery, friendship, bonding, socialization, rest. I'd like to correlate that to the different ways we consume media and make this really, really huge fantasy tea party with very different people attending. It's also an excuse to express my love for j-fashion, character design and cute things!!!

It's kinda funny because I really do think this very cutesy front is what I'm most comfortable presenting myself as. But people who know me IRL also naturally affiliate me with more edgy aesthetics and interests, which is, interesting! It's still me, yes, but it's different. I think I'd have more to say but that's where the fuse in my brain ends! I have attention problems!

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I talk about college like it's all that meanwhile I'm DROWNING in backlogs orz

I think I'm past the age of oversharing on the internet in the same, unhealthy way I used to years ago -- well, I AM oversharing now, but I promise it was way worse before!! But because of how bad my mental health has deteriorated, I'm finally getting to take college slower. We literally did not have a summer break and it was so fucking bad...

There's a lot I have to say about the education system here, especially in my case as an animation student, where you don't have a lot of good options where I live. There are profs that I really do like, who really do push me in a healthy way to do my best, but I can't improve the way I want to in these conditions. All these general subjects, all the units I take, some profs being a little too kind with their critique.

I did want to take online courses instead. Not a lot of people have the opportunities that I was given, and I'm very privileged to be here, practicing art, among other things. But if I could spend my college fund on those online courses from those in the industry and the rest goes to anyone else who better needs the tuition money, I'd gladly do that.

Anyways, what's done is done and I'm able to get a really light load next sem :]] hopefully I'll be able to do so much better on my art subjects! I ended up loving the process of animation and I do hope that when I finish my film, I'll feel glad that I was able to let myself make it

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I don't really know what else I'd like to say on here other than this very singular instance of me wanting to be cool and different and use anything other than Facebook and Twitter. But it is nice being in a social media where I could control the IRL people that know me on here. I feel that now, you ACTUALLY have to stay connected to a lot of people, even just acquaintances, on social media. Talking to orgmates, talking to classmates, being known by other artists. And it isn't the worst thing ever, it's just,,, tiring.

And I don't like finstas. Or priv twitters. It feels too tiring to maintain that many accounts when I already hold personal and art accs!

WOW this is long,,, okay, bye I guess !!!!

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It is never a waste to be kind╰(*´︶`*)╯♡