addictive shit

I don't know why lately I've been losing my mind SO MUCH over very useless shit that probably a mf I got involved in the past got me addicted to drinks and friendships that are just fucking me up, like I wasn't like that bro,I wasn't much for going out, I don't know how I managed to do this shit with very restrictive parents,Now I get insanely angry and I treat everyone badly with people who didn't even do anything (in the case when I can't or don't go to what and where I want)

ok this is bad asf, but i'm already on the right track, i made a promise to stop this shit and i'm going to church (a place that makes me think A LOT and makes me regret the things i've done a day)