Internet and my obsessions

I'm on the Internet 24/7, so I've probably seen a lot of fine ppl on my fy, here's the day I saw a completely beautiful boy, blonde, blue eyes and who as always lived miles away from me,basically I was obsessed, and it's a good thing that at that time I couldn't see when the person saw his profile, otherwise I was already being accused of being a stalkeri told all my friends about him, that i had met this boy and that he was different from ALL the cute boys i have ever seen, that i had asked him on snaps (he never accepted me) and how much i was in love.

this reminded me of a time i dreamed of a literally perfect boy doing everything i wanted like cute couples stuffi fell in love with him (a boy my mind created with scenarios that never happened) yes i tried methods to try to dream about him again, but it never worked, and the only thing that makes me feel good abt dating things is seeing some couple on the internet and spending hours talking and imagining myself in that situation