second entry

yesterday i went to my first real party .. it was a halloween party and at first i felt miserable and that i didnt belong there but eventually people came up to me and actually wanted to talk and get to know me and stuff and it was really fun ! thats never happened to me before i felt like i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life even if it was just for a night and i would never talk to these people again... well thats what i thought .. anyway im meeting up with one of the girls from the party tonight and im nervous and excited ! i was hesitant at first to do this but i think it will be good for me to put myself out there continuously ... i cant be in my comfort bubble forever i guess lol .. anyway we'll see how it goes ! ! thats all for now .. =)