a little bit of my recent music history

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I always figured the stuff i went thru at 16/17 would be the worst of things, and when i passed that then things would be easier. 3 years later and im still trying to fill the holes. I have never been "emo". i like to think im just a guy who likes music. I found "emo" music like2 years ago and fell in love, probably cuz i related to it a lot. I kind of feel like i missed out on growing up with the genre(s), but then i remember i didnt have any need for it or relate to it at all until i was like 16. I was so depressed in highschool but didnt really acknowledge it... i still struggle with it 4 years later but atleast i accept it now. My dad always listened to blink182 and 90s grunge growing up, so i was pretty familiar with those, but when i was 18 I got into poppunk. Sum41 and Green Day were prob my first introduction to it (besides blink). Then I kind of spiraled deeper into the genre. Last year when i was at my lowest and struggling with suixide and a bunch of other stuff, i found midwestemo which def made me more miserable lol xd but i related to it on a very deep level especially the aesthetic and general theme of reflection. Ive always had a problem with nostalgia and watching myself and the things i love grow older. I guess its cuz i dont like change. I also found post hardcore around this time thanks to Knuckle Puck and Tiny Moving Parts. Their vocals are the perfect mix of "mostly clean with a touch of dirt; aggressive but not overbearing." This is still one of my favorite songs and i related to it so much last year. I really felt like a version of myself was singing this to me. https://youtu.be/3l-rY1MByy0

2 years later and i still love "emo" music. Im a pretty emotional guy so I guess it makes sense. Right now im super into scrEAMO and some heavier vocal stuff :P. If youre interested in checking out my spotify heres the link: https://open.spotify.com/user/lp74nlzer8jeh7jdv8u85uysl?si=200e7b59679e4e4a