Nostalgia.

I find my old memories to be evocative, and that's what nostalgia is.

The joys of summer, the thrill to turn on the tv and click the on demand option to play back your favorite show/movie you missed, the dreams and ideas that thrive your young mind to what you want to be in the future.. there's so many bits and pieces to remember that I can never put my finger on.

To smell a scent that flashes you back to a very moment, I can't help but hope that scent is a time machine that will bring me back, so I can do it all over again. There are certain scents I'd rather close my nose for, the bad memories, the childhood trauma. The tears I would shed when sleepovers were over, when I'd get a frowny face in my school agenda, report cards, homework I didn't understand, childhood friends that I'd never see again, family drama that was out of my control and surely anything but my fault.

Nostalgia is very disruptive to my choices, wanting to hold on to what I once knew.. I don't want to hoard everything.. I can't do that. I always try to recreate at times, or better yet to live in the moment, its difficult but what I'll eventually realize is those moments I spend living in the present will soon become nostalgic feelings right under my nose. 

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New word of the day: Evocative- means bringing strong images, memories, and feelings to mind.