venting

no one reads my blogs but I'm not doing so hot in school cause I still need to finish setting up my plan but my parents know, or at least my mom does, so I won't be in as much trouble. I'm planning on telling my dad and stepmom about my grades once me and my mom go to Maryland so when he calls to scream at me I can meditate to calm down and get all my anxiety out by playing with the dog (when I get anxiety attacks a) I get all panicky and need to move around or run and b) animals and nature calm me down.

I don't have motivation to clean my room, I am almost never truly happy anymore. but I actually have to live, I have to stay here for my dog and my brother, I can't leave them. also I wouldn't be able to finally lose weight and not be overweight anymore or wear rly cool clothes or listen to music sooooooo

ig if anyone even reads this 💀 

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