im so done

I’m not gonna drag this shit out, i want to kill myself. He was so nonchalant about it, i didn’t think he had the fucking balls to bring her up to me. It sounds really useless to be this sad over some guy I knew, but realistically how are you supposed to feel when he talks about another girl to you- when just a few weeks ago he showered you with compliments and spent time with you. He told you he loved you every night and day and did the most for you- and all of a sudden it’s gone. Now he’s talking about shooting his shot with another girl, does that not ruin you? And even now, you still love him, so wouldn’t it hurt? He wanted to be my boyfriend, and now here he is talking about the way they lock eyes. I could almost hear his heart beating in his chest when he talked about her. Oh, how I want him so badly. I miss him, I miss spending time with him. He treated me well, but now. Now he wants another girl. I just want him to tell me he loves me i miss it so much