" Lately, I've come to term that has been lingering around me for years. Now is a time that I feel like it's actually getting to me and I'm sure I cannot be the only person in the planet feeling this way. I'm at a time in my life where everyone around seems to be making lasting decisions. Sometimes those decisions feel more important than my own. Maybe we were just conditioned to think this way. It seems as if everyone is having kids, going to the army, getting married, owning their first house, and etc. It's pretty nuts honestly, especially in a time we are in today on Earth. I'm not saying that these people are completely happy, but they're not physically alone. Most of them seem to have friends and not just associates, or at least some type of life outside of themselves. On the other hand, I just have my goals. Just me and my goals, you know? Some people say they wish they would've went for their goals instead, but I think respond wit a simple "At least you have someone to come home to, that loves you". To be honest, I only have a few people that I speak to on the daily. Don't get me wrong, I do speak to people I work with, but nothing much further outside of work. I don't associate myself with many people. It's to the point where I was left with so much time that I picked up a day job and an overnight job, to have something productive to do with my time. I don't party, smoke, drink, or any of that. Just make music, skateboard, and design clothes. Those things are my safe havens. But that doesn't mean I don't want friends. I don't have friends, family, or anything out here in Neo Yokio. Just me and my thoughts. It won't always be like this though. I'm just alone.... "
I think my day was good when even someone I don't know randomly chatted with me for two seconds on discord or elsewhere. Yes, I spend my whole life sitting at home, I have neither a job nor someone to be with me, I chat with my friends who come by once a year and play games on Discord or I spend all day doing nothing. Although I try very hard not to appear depressed to people, I don't know what the solution is for me. I wish I had someone to be by my side even if they don't talk for the rest of my life.
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I think my day was good when even someone I don't know randomly chatted with me for two seconds on discord or elsewhere. Yes, I spend my whole life sitting at home, I have neither a job nor someone to be with me, I chat with my friends who come by once a year and play games on Discord or I spend all day doing nothing. Although I try very hard not to appear depressed to people, I don't know what the solution is for me. I wish I had someone to be by my side even if they don't talk for the rest of my life.
Maybe this is the perfect time to look inward and focus on what we have and what we truly want from life, right now.
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