I wanna puke I wanna die (tw:sa)

I can't do this not again I really can not do this. backstory: my brother used to date this girl S and she was crazy and after they broke up she continued to spam call me cursing me out telling me nobody loved and im ugly and don't deserve anything she called me off of her phone her friends phones I was pleading and begging her to stop she is a grown person I was freshly 15 once I finally blocked her my cousin texts me a ss of an instagram account she made sharing texts of me telling her everything that's happened to me in the past including constantly getting sa by my brothers friend when I was young she continued to follow a bunch of people from my school and the everyone knew. the account got deleted and since there wasn't any other way for her to contact me she texted my parents and told them what happened to me and a bunch of other stuff that's happened to me in my life that I told her in confidence.

today my mom called me over. and the second I heard her name my stomach dropped.

my brother had gone back to seeing her in secret at nights. I wanted to puke. I am so angry. I can't fully cry now but I know it'll hit me tonight and I know it will hit hard and im scared I am so scared.