10.9.22 (☍﹏⁰)

As event's of the year come near, a faint thought in the back of my head keeps re-occurring. Wondering if this will be my last Halloween, if I should try to spend it extra special and do a little bit with everyone. If the upcoming xmas will be my last, I worry I'm extra poor this year to afford gifts. Hearing plans of first birthday parties next year, will I be there to celebrate. 

I've been trying to clean and throw a lot of things away, but the things in this house are endless, like a maze. 

I'm just sad though, I wouldn't do anything, I know it. Because my silly little cat wouldn't understand why I'm not there to share a pillow with him at just about sunrise when I'm finally able to sleep. And man I love sharing a pillow with him and waking up and seeing his little ears. And I love my friends. 


I will endure, and continue to endure and endure and endure.