SCHOOLS STRESSFUL, THERAPY GROUPS CANCELLED, IM GOING FUCKING INSANE

it's been an eventful week, by that I mean I wouldn't have made it through this week if I didn't have so much revision to do that I can't let myself think.

1. SCHOOLS SHIT MATE. I'm very into my grades so feel the need to revise every day and it's just not healthy. I can't imagine how bad it's gonna be in a few months if I'm this stressed now.

2. my mums been sick for the past month so I've had to help out around the house and take care of myself, which means not much attention and having little time to do the things I enjoy, leading to a sprinkle of disassociation.

3. I suck at socialising. Or at least according to everyone around me who finds me annoying. I helped out at my schools open evening and my metalhead mate got all the attention, meanwhile nobody even realised I was there. I've been told to shut up multiple times this week, I dont know what to do, if I talk people hate me, if I don't talk they also hate me.

4. my anxiety groups been cancelled. okay I know this sounds small but this has been such a stressful week and it's the only time I can talk about how I feel without feeling like nobody wants to listen.

5. HEALTH ANXIETY!! I'm really scared about getting sick, especially with half term coming up because I really need a rest after how bad this half terms been.

so yeah, I didn't want to do any more rants on here but I've done it again and youre gonna deal with it because its MY BLOG, MY RULES!!!