DAY #8 AMAZING THINGS AHH (little self confidence rant)

ill try to upload daily i need an alarm, but things are becoming better.

my friend is commissioning me something im gonna charge $30 which is barely enough for it! ill need to get shoe goo first before i buy my ticket cuz i tbh can miss this but i need shoe goo first.

andddd i met a guyy he is rly tbh a big ass red flag buttt (TW: mention of ABU$E / G*NS) i mean im bored and i've been ab**ed before so i can survive it again right? but i literally only think he's kinda a red flag bcuz he owns a g**ck (type of g*n) and like he's so nonchalant abt having it so it worries me but he's cute and nice to me so why not. we're just friends rn but it's obvious we want to like know each other in the more than friends type of way yk? or maybe not and i just like him? i try to down play everything so i dont like attach, and it works so like i do it. but i don't want to miss obvious hints  just bcuz i dont think someone could like me like that. but im kinda dope so why wouldn't ppl like me? 

the fight between not having self esteem and not wanting to become narcissistic is so hard to overcome. i want to just feel good about myself without feeling like a asshat for feeling good abt myself. 

anyway that got kinda wierd, but whatever, PLEASE COMMISSION MEEE AHH