im so tired

ive decided im not gonna bother with formality here... still gonna try and make my thoughts more coherent when i talk though lol

anyway im so tired oh my god. im not even tired tired im just. tired. sleepinf will not fix this. its a permanent tired. i hate it god... i just want to read and stay up all night i hate the chemicals in my body why cant they shut up and let me live my life????? i understand why i just. wish i didnt have to feel like this. i hate/love sleeping. theres so much time wasted in sleeping but also??? sleeping is so nice. i have a weighted blanket and a duvet and a fleece blanket and this faux bunny fur pillow thing... its so comfy and its all to make up for the fact that my mattress is. so fucking HARD... ITS SO UNCOMFORTABLE