losing the will to live

I don't know why I feel like shit, I just do. I have no reason to feel this way; hell I should be feeling better than ever! Nothing horrific or traumatizing has happened so it's probably just my brain wanting attention, like normal. I got a new computer, I'm doing somewhat well in school and there's brownies for desert tonight! Why am I just an ungrateful brat? Why is it now that I feel like shit? Am I not happy with what I have? Yea sure I can't connect my drawing tablet or my keyboard to my new computer because Linux is annoying and I haven't worked on my game for a couple days now so the side effects are staring to kick in and I swear I'm allergic to something but idk if that's a problem or just a normal thing and I don't want to look like some attention seeking idiot at the doctor. There's a war on and people are dying, there's floods destroying entire cities out here and I'm complaining about not overworking myself? Why aren't I happy that I found my 3DS charger so I can play the games I have there? Why aren't I happy that I have an entire PS4 downstairs that I've neglected for so long? Why do I even write blog posts when I know for a fact nobody gives a flying fuck what I ate for lunch? Honestly, there's no reason for me to feel this way but ya know: the brain is a quirky slab of meat.