silly things ive cried over at school this month

(i will attempt to defend these)

1. people clapping after i played an elliott smith song on guitar in assembly:

my favourite guitarist of all time and a huge inspiration for me, i learnt the song in just one week and played it perfectly and thought "holy shit im playing one of my musical heroes songs.. and people are enjoying it??!?!?!"

2. my friend not showing up to school for two days:

KATIE COME TO SCHOOL PLEASE I HAVE NO FRIENDS OTHER THAN YOU I NEED TO EMOTIONAL SUPPORT!!!!

3. my drama group not listening to me:

one of my favourite lessons, so you bet your ass that if all the attention isnt on me i will get emotional

4. being told i should go on the undateables

the undateables is a british show where they couple up people with special needs. im very in denial about my divergency, even writing this makes me want to curl up into a ball.

BUT YES. from my last two posts you can see that i am an emotional mess. ive gone from mourning my non existant brother who i had a dream about dying, to crying over playing a dead musicians song on guitar.

theres a lot of death related things in my life. thats probably not good is it?