worst day of my life

tw:mentions of violence,bullying and homophobia??

i got beat up today,awsome/s. basically this guy whos in like year nine (i think thats grade 8 for americans idk) came up to me and my friends yesterday and asked if we were emo and they said no but i said yeah then he asked if im gay and me being the dumbass i am said yeah without thinking and today at lunch he came up to me and my friends again and threw me on the floor then he kept throwing himself on top of me!! then he dragged me through a bush which hurt...ALOT!! but then before he left he emptied all the stuff from my bag on my head :( he also took my friends bag but he didnt hurt them which is good. but guess what,my best friends were laughing at me and joking with the guy the whole time!! it rlly upset me anyway cos he kept hitting me and calling me slurs,but my friends werent even trying to help me!! they just stood laughing,every single one of them. that probably hurt more than actually being thrown on the ground and hit. my friends never even bothered to ask if i was okay after... 

i dont understand why its always me out of the group of my friends who gets bullied. im a nice person..i think anyway. but im rlly quiet and i never bother anyone so why do they choose to hit me. ive never done anything to upset someone!! its never my friends only ever me. mabey some times they get called a few names,but they dont get chased around school or dragged through a fucking bush!! its so unfair :( and my best friend hangs about with this girl whos super popular who used to call me a dog and make fun of me and i know she can hang out with whoever she wants but shes always defending her when she litterally ruined my life!! no one will listen to me, they all laugh it off because im meant to be the "funny friend" who can take a joke. its so stupid. 

im trying my hardest but i cant take it anymore. not when the people i thought actually cared about me laugh at me when i get bullied. i hate them all so much. i realy thought for once in my life i had nice friends!! who cared!! its like im incapable of finding good people!! every person ive ever called my friend has ended up a total ass. this sort of thing keeps happening every time i get beat up or bullied,they laugh at me,and when i try bringing up they tell me to "learn to take a joke"  

im gonna stop talking about this. who cares.