How I feel

I wish for a lot of things if it was just that easy I wish I weren't a woman, black, dumb, short, or fat I wish I was rich, born to a wealthy family I wish I had more meaning in life but I don't people that know me will say I do have a meaning and I say WHAT... what is my meaning in life to give birth to babies to work a 9 to 5 job to found my true love to die old WHY... why would I want this meaning if I wasn't a woman people would give me more respect that a man gets every single I just don't get it  if I was a man my own parents would let me date would let me go out more they would not care what I wear WHY...  if I wasn't black people would not even care to look at me if I'm walking teacher would not have to keep in eye on me the jobs would hire me people would not look at me in a convenience store by my house WHY ME.... if I was samter I could get good grades I could go to a good college I could be happy but no i just have to be slow at learning things and it make it no better that i can't even spell right and i don't really know gramer and were to put a period i hate when people say "WHERE ARE THE PERIODS"  people make fun of it all the time i hate it so much i hate how my whole family is smarte but than there's me dumb i cry sometimes about it but that makes me want to HAVE A MEANING IN LIFE.... if i was tall i would not get laugh at me when i can't reach something or i have to jump to get something are when people say "YOUR SO SHORT" wow thanks for telling me like i didn't know why can't the world CHANGE... if i wasn't fat MY LIFE would be so much better i known  I'm fat that boys would only want me behind doors they all ways tell me don't tell no one WHY... so i can keep getting talked about but you can keep living your life why  ever morning when i wake up thinking I'm losing my mind because i getting fat you know sometimes well i don't eat and only eat once the school lunch is the only thing i eat sometimes cuz i don;t want to be fat DID YOU KNOW as song as you reject a boy he will call you a fat b**** why did you know people called me jelly rolls why and when I'm with my friends no boys will even look at me why me why is this my meaning huh who give this to me if i was RICH  i wolund not be hateing myslfe because i can't pass my classes with all A's so i can get in to a good college so i can work a good job or i can be famous you know buy my mom her house i would not have to be afraid about my phone turning off about what im going to eat about wear im going to live this world we live in makes no scent to me at all hey but when can say i wish right that's why i wish for a lot of things i hope your wish just as big as mine.