oh no.. exams.. 29/09/2022

Wow, exam week is already here. Didn't school start just a few weeks ago? Well I have a terrible school. 50 minutes lesson, 5 minutes break. 30 minutes lunch break with a cafeteria of 300 students in line everyday so I have to starve. I sometimes bring food from home, usually a sandwich with some fruits but my god, how heavy my bag gets.. I absolutely hate it. My bag is already so heavy.. with nothing inside?? Just my journal, a book to read, pencil case, water, lunch box and my music sheets. Most people carry double the amount of that and I do have an average sized school bag. It's crazy. Anyways, my math exam is tomorrow. I had started the year off strong, studied even before the school started just in case. I studied a lot the first week, I'm still trying my best but dear god math has gotten so difficult. I was doing good until these whole page long calculations filled up my books. I started the year with the inspiration of Rory Gilmore (search her up if you don't know the show but do know that i'm disappointed in you.) but the inspiration didn't match my motivation. The motivation only held on for about a week or two, then the inspiration slowly faded but I need to get it back asap for the exam week. The algebra is killing me.. To someone who wants to be an artist, reads and writes; a math work with not even a single word is like poisoning me directly. In fact I'd prefer that kinda. I left all the studying to the last day but I had done some preparations a week ago. I'll go over some work and start praying until it's time to sleep. (and watch an episode of House M.D.) I'm terrified...