romance is strange, feelings are strange

there's something so beautiful about love, I didn't believe in it previously but I think I may have been wrong, being wrong about things is something I truly find hard to admit but just this once; I'm glad i was wrong. love is so interesting, so abstract. there are so many different kinds of love, of course there's romantic. the most commonly sought after kind of love, then there's platonic, something so soft and pure. friendship love is something I've of course experienced before, I'm not friendless I swear X-x.... but this,, this is something completely different, so obscure. so beautiful but yet so so scary. asking him to go out with me on a date, something so simple, somehow felt far scarier than anything I'd faced previously.. and in our innerworld I live with our creepypasta fictives so that's saying.... something O-o. anyway, all went well but why on earth am I still so nervous?. Is this love?. no thats too soon. we've known one another for quite some time, just not directly..... WHAT IS THIS F*CK3RY