a little vent i think

need to let my thoughts out so yeah. i think i should slow down bahahaha im doing so much rn my minds just exploded today. i need to learn to be content with where im at rn, physically most of all but also psychologically and spiritually. yes spiritually is another main one. i just need to relax and realise where im at is where im at rn. ive been moving, ive been trying to get this student exchange stuff done which theyre returning back to me coz i was a bit messy and rushed it, as well as tryna get a job and get schoolwork done and then all my other desires like looks and such all fixed up. my problem is i stress to much and i can never seem to have the chance to be content. i so want to blame others for my struggles and my stress and all my dillemas but i put it upon myself i guess. oh well who did it isnt the problem, trying to bring myself back together is, which ill do and im getting there just need to relax. i miss school bahaha its only a two week holiday but im losing my mind its giving me too much time to think ughhhhhh and i have another week and like 3 days. but ill use this break and this rest to ground myself and just be happy where i am. thanks for reading, have a brilliant day