wednesday 21st september 2022

back at college, been there for a week and it's not fun. the stress and anxiety i have about the future is not fun either. i have absolutely no clue what i want to do with my life, hopefully something with my music, but i'm not sure if i want to go to uni next year or not. i don't have long to decide that, which is so stressful. i feel like if i do decide to go, it's only because so many other people are and i feel i'll be making the wrong choice by not going. even though i don't want to go because it's just harder and more stressful work. but honestly, what else am i meant to do. 
i didn't think i'd still be here. i'm nearly 18 now. i didn't think i'd have to decide on my future so soon.