i hate being trans.

I feel bad for felling like this witch just makes everything worse but omfg it's killing me dating a exlesbian like I just makes me feel like shit. I belive her when she says shes attracted to man n all that but it's been making my dysphoria so much worse. and idk I feel like I have to me more feminine?  and my mannerism changed so much so fast because of that I just noticed that writing this and now I'm about to start crying in class bc I already repress being trans too much n I just noticed the only thing that people commented on me being masculine is the way a act so I might just kill my self after this class (/j) and I feel gross everytime she seems my body bc yeas my female body is supppperrr hot n sexy but I don't like that. I'm not even super dysphoric about me body bc luckily my tits are small, but I've been felling so bad I'm dysphoric about >everthing<.

n I dated this one cis girl a while ago n I swore I wound never that a cis person again bc they make me wanna kill myself but I really like her n idk is just so fucking annoying y can't I just be happy being a girl or why can't I just be a real man I fucking hate being trans. n I really like her witch just makes everyhing worse bc I donr want to leave but it's making me go crazy. n idk t4t is too hard all the trans people ik are either dating or tenderqueers. 

anyway hate being a tranny