Time to get serious about my YouTube career

    Hey everyone your Boy Blue up on here just chillin with a nice kratom and delta 8 buzz watching hoarders. But yeah yesterday was my birthday, i turned 40. And well, i'm trying to cut back drinking. I know I always say that but i really got to try harder. I'm tired of being dependent on beer.

    So anyways as you may know i am a vlogger on YouTube I go live every day across a few different channels and well, i really need to get serious if i want to make more money. I say it's my job so I need to treat it that way. IDK like i was telling a friend on my show today i feel like i lost my mojo, i'm not as entertaining as i used to be i feel due to my meds and being a major burnout, lol. 

    I try to focus on Juggalo stuff but i need to try and branch out and dabble with different topics on my main channel. I also have this channel called Juggalo Drama alert and well, the drama channel makes more money and gets more views than my main channel but i don't want to be known as a drama queen or a busybody all in everyone's business, lol. But hey, drama sells. 

    Right now i just need to worry about staying on the wagon and off the beer. It's clouding my head. Maybe i'll make better content once i'm sober for a while. Possibly look into online AA meetings or just do my own and host it privately that would be dope. I know i can do this i need to make more money to spend on my kids. I am trying to be in their lives more. Sometimes i just feel worthless. I'm on a lot of meds for my mental health and they don't mix well with all the drinking.

    So hey, if you pray please pray for me i apriciate all the love and for checking out my blog. Much love!!!!