... A like a guy ha

I am in love with THEM. They make my heart flutter whenever i hear their name. They make me feel special every text message they send me. They make me want to sing dance and smile. God I've been thinking about them all day and I cant stop smiling. I wish they were mine, we were so close in the year of 2021 [its 2022] When I was ready, they wasn't and visa versa. 


"Ill wait for you." 


I still wait for you, I wait for you to try again with me, waiting for our sun to rise but for now ill listen to your favourite artist and cry to your favourite movie, reminding me of us. I hope you don't find another girl, but yet I wish you all the happiness the world can offer. You make it feel like Christmas is every day, did you know that? I hope you find the joy in the smallest things like I did whenever I was with you, god the things I see in you I haven't been able to find in no body else. No matter how many times you change yourself you'll forever be perfect, picture perfect. I want you to know that I am here waiting and I miss you utterly. I want you back. I want to be in your arms as We fall asleep as you stroke my back. I want you. I wish for you back. God my parents say pfft you don't love them, you don't know what love is. Well whenever I see you, the world brightens and everyone around is smiling, the impossible is possible by your presence, life is like a movie without the camera. I wish you knew what you bring to this world, you bring a lot more then you think. A lot more then you know. I will never reach pure happiness then you. I picture one day we'll be together, and happy. I know its not the case and ill marry some slum on the street who will just eat and sleep and work. But I wish I could join you on your travels with the black cat with no name as we live in the hills of a small little village as we speak about the tattoos of what cartoon you should get. I wish that was us but it'll never be because I doubt you'll ever see me as me again, because I don't think we can work as much as were perfect together perfect is never perfect, I learnt that the hard away. I wish I had you. I envy any girl who gets you, gets to see you in a suit wearing a white dress. I envy the girl you kiss, the girl you'll have kids with, the girl you'll die with. And I wish it was me. I want to care for you, hug you, kiss you, love you.