(Repost from Bulletin) Rant (TW: s/a, also, CW)

"You have to forgive to be forgiven"

Says who?! I'm not gonna forgive the man that s/a'd me. I can't. I just can't do it. Why? Cause I have nothing to be sorry for. He needs to man up and stop his lying (He kept telling people nothing happened, and he didn't s/a me)

I'M MORE OF A MAN THAN HE IS! Cause I know the truth! And it upsets me because he will never tell me he's sorry. He will never tell me that he knew it was wrong.

I developed my PTSD and my DID thanks to him. But he won't tell me he's sorry.

So why should I forgive him? Who's gonna help me? Who's gonna forgive me? NO ONE. 

I know I'm trans, I get that... But I am MORE OF A MAN THAN HE IS at this point, because I know I can be ten times better than that lying cis man was. 

And he wanted me back at one point... Why? To use me again. 

I can't even do something I wanna do with Ry, Chris, C, Brock, or Liam, because of him. 

My wedding night/day might suck because of this guy... All because of what he did to me...

So "you have to forgive to be forgiven" is total bs. 

I will never forgive him for as long as I live.

(He's not sorry... °Gee)